I just woke up crying. It sucks to feel this way with nowhere to turn. I feel I've exhausted everyone around me with these problems. I'm honestly so torn. I can't believe in one month I'll lose A for good. It sucks that he's leaving and we can't even say hi to each other. It sucks even more that I feel the way I do and those feelings can't be returned. It's breaking and draining. I finally realized how annoying it is to constantly accuse someone and jump to conclusions and even act on insecurities. 

I'm just so sad. I can't stop crying. I'm so happy I'm off tomorrow, so happy.

I know I'm supposed to do five minutes a day...today was bad & I can't write how I feel.

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

I can not wake up in the morning without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy

To walk right in and out of my life?

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

First night in weeks I didn't dream of you, has to be a sign right? 

It'll be really weird seeing wakey!wakey! this time around. I'm extremely excited and can not wait for this concert, but I'm saddened by it also. My last concert was with Anthony and I'm so grateful he came; it was truly a beautiful moment in our relationship (at least to me). I would love for him to come with me and this be our last "ha-ra"...here's to hoping.

We’ll fall

But we’ll try

We’ll do our best

And I’ll love you all the while