I feel so helpless in this situation. Kaitlyn is resorting back to old habits and there is nothing I can say or do to change that. How can I help her when I can't even help myself? What do I say when I can't even quiet my thoughts? 

I really just miss him so much. It's really taking everything to not message him. 

We were in love, but I wasn't the only one.

If you love me so much then why'd you let me go

Cause it's the time when my heart got shutdown

Still ain't learn me no manners, you love me when I ain't sober

You love me when I'm hungover, even when I blow doja

Then her auntie came over, skinny bitch with no shoulders

Tellin' you that I'm bogus, bitch you don't even know us

Baby girl, he's a loner, baby girl, he's a loner

I have done every single thing to get out of writing this speech...one subject comes to mind and that's a subject that may be too difficult to tackle in a room full of strangers. 

It’s been long enough that I can think of you and it’s been long enough that I can speak to you but I don’t really think that you want to anymore. I could have done much better for you but you could have done much better for me, I’m sure. What if we got it all wrong? So we tried our best but it wasn’t enough and we tried so hard that we fucked it up. And I understand it. It’s gotta be hard; what you’re going through. And I get what you say but it’s what with you… It got us here and I guess what’s done is done. What if we got it all wrong? Days are short and the nights are long and it’s all fucked up but we carry on cuz there’s little else and nothing left to do.”

-Wakey!Wakey!

I guess all I can hope now is that you don't bad mouth me like you bad mouthed her.