My heart feels so extremely heavy today. I've exhausted all of my sources of venting about this issue. I never really talk to my friends and say bad things about Anthony, but I do let them hear more of the bad stories than they do hear good. I don't think anyone truly dislikes Anthony for anything but the way that he has treated me recently.
I remember how happy I was when Anthony told me he was being stationed closer to me, it was like an overwhelming amount of joy because that meant I could see him more often...I never thought we would fight more often.
I can't remember a time than I was more happy than on my birthday...
I still can't do this.
