Hungry for love, chasing things that I could give up.

Show me that you're willing to fight,

that I'm still the love of your life. 

I'll give you the rest of my life. 

Father, lead me...because I can't do this alone. 

I forget about you long enough, to forget why I needed to.

My heart feels so extremely heavy today. I've exhausted all of my sources of venting about this issue. I never really talk to my friends and say bad things about Anthony, but I do let them hear more of the bad stories than they do hear good. I don't think anyone truly dislikes Anthony for anything but the way that he has treated me recently. 

I remember how happy I was when Anthony told me he was being stationed closer to me, it was like an overwhelming amount of joy because that meant I could see him more often...I never thought we would fight more often. 

I can't remember a time than I was more happy than on my birthday...

I still can't do this. 

You be the anchor...

Well, it's been a while- probably because I'm still speechless. It's been almost a month and the pain hasn't lessened maybe it's gotten worse. Today was bad. It's sad. I'm sad. 

That's enough for now.