Saturday, August 25, 2012

Intriguing.

They fall in love, or lust. Or perhaps “love” and “lust” are the same thing, and “hatred” is just “love” spelled backwards, and “backwards” is just “forwards” spelled wrong.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

I keep saying 'I'm over it' so everyone leaves me alone but, in reality I'm so far from 'over it' that 'over it' seems non existent. What can I say though, I gave him two years and my heart. I try to ignore the time and focus on the feelings. Previously he asked me why him and why do I like him, I'm just so scared to answer that question. I'm scared to be happy over what he says. He said I give him butterflies the thought of that makes me cry. The butterfly feeling is one of the best feelings a person can experience and he's getting that from me, the person who wanted to give him that feeling. Always and forever. I never thought I would build a wall around my heart for him and I feel that I built one.

I like(d) him for so many reasons. His dedication as a friend and a person is so admirable. There's this essence he has almost indescribable. That being with him makes me want to be a better person. He'll deny it but he has hope
In everything. His forgiveness and heart is so kind. He has walls he won't let down but once you get a little past those he's a person who just wants to be loved a person who has taught me to love. He got into my heart and opened it up to a feeling that I never knew existed. He's one of the best people I know. He denies his potential but I believe in it so much. I wish he could see himself the way I do.

...I love you for you.

I mean, things were always so easy between us before but this is real life. Yes, we made mistakes. We screwed up. Maybe we can be that couple that finds our way through it to something better... something we both know is worth fighting for and protecting. I... I don't have all the answers. I just... I know that I miss you.

-Mouth; One Tree Hill Season 6
You and Me and The bottle makes three.

Monday, August 6, 2012

Life is too short not to be with the person you want to be with.
-Miley Cyrus

Friday, August 3, 2012

Our diner.

Being here brings back so many memories.
Our first date came back here. Sitting and drinking hot chocolate until three in the morning.
Christmas morning. Joining us for our family breakfast.
Him alone. Coming here because it reminded him of me.
Coming here together. Known as a couple.
Coming here alone, being asked where my other half was.

God, I miss him.

Don't speak, don't breathe. You bring out the devil in me.

So don't break my heart
I ain't never done
Nothing to deserve this
And I'm torn apart
You've had your fun
Do you suppose I earned it?
You know the best thing about a paper jam?
It forces you to open up the machine and find out what went wrong in the first place.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Do you?

I'll leave you alone for good I promise
There's a question I just got to ask...

Do you ever
Think of me, anymore?

I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?
Pick me, choose me, love me.